Apologizing

     One thing I can not absolutely stand is apologizing. Now lots of you reading this will automatically think "wow this guys a dick..." when you read this but hey, don't judge. I have reasons for all my actions. Now not all apologies are bad. When I realize I'm wrong, I own up to it... and say I'm sorry when needed, but that's rare considering I'm rarely wrong. ;) Now no I'm not that stuck up, its just I argue and refuse to admit I'm wrong when i was not the only person making a mistake. Taking all the blame for a fight is a joke considering it takes two to tango. 

     But here is the inevitable down side to that... Over time I have built up a pretty good number of people that have never gotten over a petty fight with me. So I wanted to try something new today. I woke up this morning, swallowed my pride, and went to school with a list of names of people I needed to apologize too. It didn't matter what the fight/argument was about, I just straight up apologized for everything to everyone. And I have to admit, it feels pretty dang good. Hopefully I can gain back some well missed friendships. 

Masks

"She had blue skin,

And so did he.

He kept it hid,

And so did she.

They searched for blue,

Their whole life through,

Than passed right by...

And never knew."

-Shel Silverstein

Best songs in my library

• Pursuit of Happiness - Kid Cudi
• Bad- The Cab
• Tequila - J.Rabbit
• M.A.D.D. City - Kendrick Lamar
• Secrets - One Republic
• The Other Side - Macklemore
• Erase Me - Kid Cudi
• Day 'N' Night - Kid Cudi
• I Luv This Shit - August Alsina/Trinidad James
• The Language - Drake
• Show Me - Kid Ink
• Young Girls - Bruno Mars
• Backseat Freestyle - Kendrick Lamar
• Bleeding Out - Imagine Dragons
• Runaround Sue- G Eazy
• Ride - SoMo

Cliques Don't Define You

     Society has labels for everything. Religion, race, intelligence, salary, and even your friends. It's funny to me, how people judge others by what they like enjoy... You like sports? Oh you're a jock. Video games? You're a nerd. Long boarding? You're a pot head. Its ridiculous... A person even gets judged by the people they choose to hang out with. 
     
     First off, to understand my view on this you have to understand my position... I am friends with multiple people who are all in multiple different cliques. I guess my "home group" or main friend group would be what most would call the "preps". It consists of the school athletes with their nice cars and the white girls with their Starbucks. And I love them all, their fun to talk to and be around... But I also like to stray away once in awhile and hang out with my other friends. Lets see... there's the "stoner skateboarders" and the "nerdy theater people" which are also great and fun to hang out with.

      But here's the catch... In today's world, society titles you for who you hang out with. I'm known as a "asshole" for having prep friends, I'm known as a "pot head partier" for hanging out with some long boarding guys, and I'm also known as a "fag" for liking to chill with some people that are in theater. And it pisses me off, the amount of judgement I receive for the people I choose to spend my time with. I don't really love sports that much, and I've never have been fascinated with long boarding, and I have never wanted to be in theater... Yet I'm categorized as a part of their cliques. Everyone needs to stop the judging and accept people for who they are no matter what they are. Be what you want and hang out with whoever makes you happiest. 

Relationship or Relation-shit?

     Too often, my friends will come to me in distress, looking for help with their relationships... Now don't get me wrong, I love helping and giving advice to my friends, but its just that when it involves their significant other... All the problems are always the same. The petty fights and the stress caused by these amateur high school relationships all have the same mischievous source: Distrust. 
     
     As Eros the God of Love once said in famous Greek literature "Love cannot live where there is no trust". I honestly couldn't say it better myself. If only teenagers could realize how pointless amateur relationships are, they could save themselves the heartbreak. Now keep in mind I'm not speaking to all, just most. I know multiple high school couples who have been together for years and probably will stay together for multiple years to come. But those certain pairs of people... I've never seen such amazing bonds and trust between two before. Hell my parents are not even as close as those couples. Regardless... They know what their doing, unlike the rest of the teenage population. So how do you fix this distrust problem? Easy and obvious answer. Don't rush things. 

     Today, people think that you must automatically date someone if you've have had "a thing" with them for more than two weeks... But there is no way you can actually know someone well enough to begin a real, strong relationship only after that short while. Just wait. No one is rushing you, sit down and get to know your significant other. Talk to him/her and find out about the stuff you would like to know before starting anything serious with them. Even the small things matter. Decide whether you actually want to spend a chunk of your life with that person... and decide if you are ready for a commitment and responsibility of a relationship. Follow those rules and tips and you might prevent your next relationship from turning into a relation-shit. Good luck!